Last Kiss

I've been listening to Last Kiss by Taylor Swift a lot lately. It's really been ringing true with me. My boyfriend, Drew, recently told me that he wants a "break" from our relationship. We've been together for 5 years. We've been best friends for, like, 9 or something, so losing him isn't just losing my boyfriend, it's losing the best friend i've ever had, too. Some of the lines really stick out to me, especially the ones where she says "I don't know how to be something you miss." And where she talks about the boy in the song showing off and being the life of the party. Drew was constantly showing off. It was one of the things I loved most about him. He always acted so cocky, but he wasn't at all. I have so many doubts in my mind now, like I don't even know if I ever knew him after all. I always liked to think that I knew him super well, but now i'm not so sure. I feel like I'm done crying though... at least for now.
I wish there was something I could do to show him how much I care.
I'm fighting the feelings I have of turning off. I have to keep going with my life. I have to prove that I can.