So... Drew and I are officially starting our "break" on wednesday. It's killing me to know that i only have 2 more hours to talk to him before we won't talk for two more weeks. I don't even know how long it's going to be before i can actually talk with him again. It hurts so much. Every time i talk to him it's like a knife in my chest. and he acts like he doesn't even care. i know it's cause his personality is different than mine, but could he at least show that he hurts at all? does he have to act like he's fine with this? does he have to kill me every time we talk? i don't wanna hurt anymore. i don't want to cry every night. i don't want to act like i'm ok in the day. i just want to shut down. i want to turn off. but i fucking can't. cause i have to keep up with school. i'm so sick of it. i just wanna fall.
Drew, you promised me forever. You. Promised. Please don't find someone else. Please always still love me. Please please please don't forget me. I Love You more than you could know.
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